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Fall 2024   |   Vol. 12, No. 1

Poems
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LaWanda Walters

LaWanda Walters

​Étude on the White Piano
 

There are no piano movers left in Ukraine.

They’ve all transformed into soldiers.

But a woman is pulling the dust cover

from her grand piano inside her bombed-out apartment.

 

The men are transformed to soldiers and Zelenskyy

is walking a reporter through tall trenches dug

right downtown, which seems surreal. On YouTube,

I saw the woman, her piano in a cloud of glittering white dust.

 

The trenches are tall hallways of mud right downtown.

The woman dusts the keyboard and the piano murmurs back.

She laughs at how real and sad the day is,

and she goes from dusting to playing the white piano.

 

Suddenly we hear from the keyboard how good it feels

to be used again. To voice Chopin. The ocean, the aeolian.

She is playing the Revolutionary Étude, which expresses

her grief, her anger. These études, technical exercises

 

for the fingers, useful if you’re going to be a concert pianist.

But outside the broken windows, it is the opposite of Chopin’s

music. There is a cow walking on a sidewalk, as if browsing

the closed shops behind glass. As if she were a woman in high heels

 

and there was peace over the land, and this other woman, playing piano,

was only practicing for a concert she will give.

 

The Pink Shoes

​

My sister performs in her hot-pink heels

at the piano—these shoes help make her heal.

Flamingo-pink sets off the black dress she wears

as solo pianist for the New York City Ballet.

 

The shoes are her favorite shade, a Kandinsky

splash among the dancers costumed as paintings

for the ballet—Balanchine’s arrangement

of Mussorgsky’s music, Pictures at an Exhibition.

 

Those pink heels remind me of a fairy tale—the girl

in red shoes who cannot stop dancing, which is her art.

One painting in the piece is from another tale—

the witch’s house that turns on four chicken feet.

 

The girl can’t stop and won’t take off the shoes. So they cut

her feet off to save her soul. They cut my sister’s voice

box out to cure her cancer. “She a smoker?” some people

like to ask, as if her illness were a punishment, not bad luck

 

or DNA, a complication from the surgery so she cannot swallow

even a teaspoon of water. A frenemy told her of the gossip

going around among the pianists. “Well, she won’t be coming back.”

What a thing to pour into my sister’s ear, while she is still on fire,

 

enduring the radiation inside her throat, no teaspoon of water, no balm.

She had come home from the diagnosis to find her grown son bawling.

Even in a text, you could hear the sizzle in that person’s voice.

My sister, though, has come back, thin as the dancers calling her

 

to take a bow with them, the male lead kissing her hand,

escorting her into the group hug—her hot-pink heels, the bind

of their worn toe shoes, bodies committed to a difficult art

that can sometimes heal our terrible, wayward thoughts.

LaWanda Walters is the author of Light Is the Odalisque (Press 53, Silver Concho Series, 2016). Her poems have appeared in Poetry, Georgia Review, Southern Review, Live Encounters Poetry & Writing, and other literary magazines, as well as in Best American Poetry 2015 and Obsession: Sestinas in the Twenty-first Century. She received Ohio Arts Council Individual Excellence Awards in 2020 and 2024. She lives in Cincinnati.

Chase Twitchell

Chase Twitchell

My Illness

 

No one can explain it,

not the family doctor, neurologist,

 

psychiatrist, naturopath, cardiologist,

radiologist, endocrinologist, homeopath.

 

It began six years ago with a virus

Russell brought home from Peru.

 

It took up residence in my body

and rode the elevator straight

 

to the penthouse, where it lives on.

It’s a medical mystery.

 

For three years I rested and researched

and watched Scandinavian crime dramas.

 

I spent whole days in the Norwegian snow,

somehow soothed by the distant anxieties.

 

I spent five hundred dollars on supplements.

I practiced accepting that I was ill.

 

I didn’t sleep, but I woke up in another body.

The one I woke up in is old.

 

 

What My Illness Said to Me

 

The whole time you hoped

I was gone I lay snoozing

 

inside you in a comfy bed,

feeding and fattening.

 

You want to call it the illness,

but we’ve aged together,

 

middle to old age overnight,

 

so please acknowledge that.

Say my illness.

 

I know you will always resist me,

but remind you

 

that in our earlier encounter

you did come close to yielding.

 

 

The Still-wild Lakes of Canada

 

We rode in the back of somebody’s pickup

to a lake I didn’t know, years and years ago,

 

and swam way out under the heavy stars,

six humans and two black lab-somethings

 

What survives is a dark, cold,

empty portrait of the Milky Way.

Chase Twichell  is the author of eight books of poetry, most recently Things as It Is (Copper Canyon, 2018). She lives in upstate New York.

Jordan Smith

Jordan Smith

After Wei Ying-wu (in Red Pine’s translation)

 

                        Your talents are wasted on a clerical office

                        Your new poems send waves down the Lu

 

Like a proud procession of scholars, their bright hoods, their crimson and black robes,

Or like an anthology of occasional verse on an occasional table,

 

Or like the merchandise booth of the reunion tour nobody wanted,

These are your lesser talents dropping by your office for a drink (just one),

 

Or sending an email to constitute a subcommittee or confirming the link

To your audience with the emperor. Click and he disappears

 

Against a blue screen of sky and majesty, just before his secretary

Texts the reservation number of your train ticket to the provinces

 

Or to the capital. My friend, we know it doesn’t matter which.

I wait for your new poems as I wait for that rumored wave

 

Cresting down the full length of the river towards the poorly-repaired levee,

The one they’ll write the songs about as they watch

 

The sun stagger up over the beached barges and bordellos.​

Jordan Smith is the author of seven full-length collections of poems, most recently Clare's Empire and Little Black Train, as well as several chapbooks, including Cold Night/Long Dog. He teaches at Union College.

Matthew Lippman

Matthew Lippman

But of Course the Birds Won

To cry is to Beethoven

 — Hollis Wright

 

It’s all so fucking stupid.

It’s all so brilliantly illuminated.

This mortal coil.

Because right now I am sitting in a cottage in the middle of New Hampshire

looking into the light and darkness outside,

a storm on the way,

and listening to Leonard Bernstein conduct the New York Philharmonic’s

interpretation of Beethoven’s 9th Symphony.

When you listen to Beethoven’s 9th Symphony

and you don’t cry you are fucking stupid and brilliantly illuminated.

One day in the span of your life you will cry, though, of this, I am sure.

The first time I cried was at Lincoln Center.

The Israeli Symphony Orchestra was in town.

This August I sat on the lawn at Tanglewood

and the BSO rocked it out.

I was with my mother, her partner, my wife, and my kids. It was family and

I wept and there was only weeping.

Tanglewood is bougie. I didn’t care.

The music beat back the birds

but of course, the birds won.

That’s my point.

It’s all so fucking stupid and brilliantly illuminated

because the birds always win

no matter if Bernstein is up there on the podium

or some kid named Butch.

I am thinking of the one that ran over Dugan’s wife’s daises

with his front-end loader.

Because when we drop the bomb

or the glaciers’ melt erases the cities

or some Boogeyman variant of Covid topples towns in invisible fashion

the birds and the dolphins won’t give a shit

about Ludwig and his joy.

I don’t know if I should be sad about this

or ecstatic.

Tonight, I am in the middle of the woods

and my friend Jessica said Soak it up--

the darkness and light

and solitude and Orion’s belt

and me at this wooden desk

where a thousand other people have sat before me

and wrote shit because they thought they had something to say

like I am writing now because I think I have something to say.

I am fucking stupid and brilliantly illuminated

and my joy is the joy of the world

and one day, maybe, me and everyone else

will shut the hell up and the birds and the dolphins

won’t have to listen to Mr. von Beethoven’s 9th Symphony

especially that part called Ode to Joy

because there will be nothing to celebrate, to ode-ify,

there will just be joy

idiotically stupid and wonderfully alive

between us and children and all the living things.

​​

In Their Sadness and Sometimes

People and animals cry.

 — Max Werber

 

At Shake Shack you wept like an animal.

Not sure if it were a rhino or an opossum but the tears, man,

they were burning through the burgers like magnesium on fire.

Remember when Richard Golden set those strips aflame

and we stood there in our 10th grade goggles

because we knew we could burn like that.

All we wanted was to get laid because biology is a drug that never stops

offering up its post buzz DNA.

You wept a fraction of a second perfectly

into the fries

and I reached across the table and touched your arm

but wanted to lick your face

the way dogs do that when we cry

or the lionesses lick the tears from their little lion babies

after the kill.

Sloths cry all the time and so do snakes.

Sometimes we can see them out there in the jungles and swamps

in their sadness and sometimes

there are too many telephones that get in the way.

At Shake Shack, I saw you from across the table

like I saw you from across the Bunsen burners when we were 15.

Paul, we’ve known each other since 7th grade and that’s a real thing—the stamina of love.

You said, That’s why I am crying with you.

You said, Who will know me when I am gone?

You said What is the worth of me

when I will have no more words to say?

And you wept into the existential abyss that is muscle, bone, and flesh.

It was the most delicious meal we’ve ever shared being.

That’s when we looked outside, through the restaurant glass, at the wild animal teenagers

and the giraffes and the honking hyaenas,

the broken felines and all the gators and osprey,

and they were all crying.

Sobbing and heaving and weeping.

This wasn’t any zoo.

It was the jungle of existence and sadness

and you were the open-hearted vulnerability of a man in front of his meat

touching his deep animal in the forest of a love so deep we rip it to shreds

with our blazing hot teeth

and we can never get enough.

Matthew Lippman is the author of 7 poetry collections. His latest book, We Are All Sleeping With Our Sneakers On is published by Four Way Books. His next collection, Cry Baby Cry, will be published by Four Way Books in the spring of 2027.

Sanni Purhonen

Sanni Purhonen

Three Poems

translated from the Finnish by the author

                   with Stephen Kuusisto and Mika Suonperä

​​

​

like a doll I remove parts of myself –

some kind of relief  

 

I’m ready to let go

 

while we’re alive feeling doesn’t stop  

the body I’m talking to can always fail me

 

while we’re waiting around  

maybe I’ll also take parts of you  

 

a world full of cut open people  

and miles of roadsides  

 

dazzling red

 

**

 

where creatures of the deep are concerned  

blood vessels and internal organs are sometimes visible through translucent skin  

we're not that different after all

 

skeletons of light

reaching out from the mist to the real

 

everyone is afraid of loneliness

there is nothing original about it

 

I stay in the dark

there is nothing brave about it  

 

**

 

when I grow up, I'm going to be

a one-legged dancer inside a box

 

I go to Home Depot to pick up a saw  

fingers stiff as nails

a bolt of blood in my mouth  

 

it’s fashionable to be a freak

that’s what everyone wants anyway

a poem about pain that isn’t real  

 

as a child my hips were shot with nails

even that didn’t really hurt  

I had the best pills  

Sanni Purhonen is the author of three collections of poetry in her native Finland. Her most recent book Jos vain muuttuisin toiseksi  (If Only I’d Turn Into Someone Else) will be published in 2025 by the Propel Poetry Series of Nine Mile Press. She is a leading figure in disability rights and culture in Finland and across the EU.

Allison Cundiff

Allison Cundiff

Kathy Blue 

 

Kathy Blue, in from out of town,

sat crisscross in cut grass,

an empty bottle of cola between her feet. 

She had borrowed a creased paperback from the house,

and ignoring the boys, asked me,

“you ever read this one?” a chewed-up straw

in the corner of her mouth. 

 

On the rag probably,

one of my brothers snickered as he stood,

arms-crossed, his homecut hair sweating 

against his forehead, the July heat 

hovering between ground and treeline.  

I squinted into her face 

and shook my head no.  

 

And across the sagging porch, for a moment

I could hear the laughter of my father

from inside.  The man who only ever had

coarse love to show his two boys. 

The same kind of love

he had been shown 

in the red dirt of what he could remember.

The kind that leaves you sick with low belly longing. 

The love you’d get 

from the kind of man 

who was hard on his dogs 

I’ll rub your nose in shit.

He hoped to make the two of them strong,

but they turned into pale brutes.

Not even summer labor could save them.

 

Kathy Blue looked up to where the lightning bugs 

hung dandelion drunk in the air between us. 

 

She reached her palm up

and lifted two of them, gliding them

like an iridescent bubble

into her bottle

to light her way.

 

 

Small Game Training 

 

This is best done in the afternoon.  

As long as more heat hangs on the earth than leaves it,

 

He keeps them penned, baying

except for the one bitch, he let me carry inside 

only because Jerry didn’t come to pick her up

so he said, sale was void.

 

My daddy did it this way too, he says from my doorway

lifting the puppy from her cedar warmth, looking at her

snout snubbed, he says, till her mama’s milk dries up.

 

I don’t want her to learn, I tell him.  

 

He sucks his teeth. 3 pm.  

More heat leaving than coming, he says,

the chicken skin from the freezer, wet in his pocket.  

The old dog pants unleashed at his boots. 

 

I pull on my boots and stand.

Too big still.

The .22, he says, nodding to the corner. 

 

I take her back from him, hold her

against my chest. 

 

Let the old dog lead her, he says. 

No bad habit in this one, he says.

 

I follow his mucks.  He leads the dogs to the path.

She falls over her tree trunk legs, noses to the mousetraps,

booby traps to learn them off the deer scent, he says.

Now he has a frozen foot.  

A rabbit’s, he says, No, it’s not a bad thing.  

I bite my bottom lip red.

I spit into the dry dirt

one clear drop that sits unmoving on the brown clay.

She runs, follows the male.  

Grasshoppers jump in arcs.

 

Then the male has nosed one.  In the coverts, off the path, he howls,

haunch feathering the culms, a bloodline of memory 

and then she’s wild from the smell of it, her back arching, 

her bay shocking the warbler from its nest,

the hare’s adrenaline in the tips of the grass.​

Allison Cundiff is a beekeeper and teacher living in St. Louis. Her publications include the forthcoming novel, Hey Pickpocket (JackLeg Press) three books of poetry, Just to See How It Feels (2018, WordPress), Otherings (2016, Golden Antelope Press), and In Short, A Memory of the Other on a Good Day, co-authored with Steven Schreiner, (2014, Golden Antelope Press). Connect at Allisoncundiff.net

Kara Dorris

Kara Dorris

The Not-So-New Normal

Thinking about normalcy is one of the least normal things we can do.—Rod Michalko

 

Normal was Barbie & Ken 

& Cindy Crawford. 

 

Smile & sit pretty & think 

good thoughts. I was

 

white & thin, a cute girl despite 

it all, they said. Tumors 

 

meant cancer. Curved spines 

define scoliosis, at least 

 

that’s what the nurse said 

when she sent me home 

 

with a doctor’s note. Thinking 

about normalcy is the least 

 

normal thing we can do,

someone smart once wrote. 

 

I say, I have bone tumors

& you should see the look

 

on everyone’s faces,

worthy of any horror

 

movie. My way of embodying 

this world is scary. I am

 

the one with a chainsaw

& machete. I am

 

the one who reminds them

we are all in this together. 

 

 

Liminal Barbie (2) 

after artwork of Persimmon Blackbridge 

 

Wing or tangle- 

weed? Feather-stitched 

plastic or skin 

that wears it bones on

the other side. Braces 

hold our chests

apart. Disabled is not

the opposite 

of symmetry. I see 

myself in those stair-

stepped hips, arms curved 

to sky one a hand-

length longer, 

legs tied as if an infinity

bow. I’ve found

myself beautifully 

balanced in

unbalanced art

more than any dolls

I pretended to be

when I was younger.​

I have always believed poetry is resistance. The best protest poems mix the personal and the political. As I write lately, I can’t help but think about the way intersectionality works to layer on injustices—the way gender intersects with disability until I cannot separate one from the other. For a long time I felt like I must hide my disability as if I must become an abled body when I walk into a classroom or store, when I teach. Now I know that isn’t true. These poems work to uncover the hidden agendas, stigmas, what aches. Poems as translators.

-Kara Dorris

Macallan Lay

Macallan Lay

An Addiction

 

I spent an eternity sleeping,

eyelashes fluttering between doses

like a heart. I pluck my dreams from the ash

and rub them between my fingertips.

 

My heart flutters between doses.

My parents worry I’ll disappear.

I pluck my sins from the ash,

God calls me between drinks.

 

My parents worry I’m disappearing.

I start sweating in my sleep.

God calls me between drinks.

When I pick up, no one is there.

 

I speak in tongues while I sleep.

Each lover becomes a faux pas.

When I call, no one answers.

My mother gives up.

 

Each lover becomes a faux pas,

but I keep making the same mistakes.

My father gives up.

A light bearer appears.

 

I fear I’m only meant for mistakes.

Plucking my heart from the ash,

a light bearer appears

but I have spent an eternity sleeping. 

 

 

The Long Faultless Tongue of God

 

I focus on moving like the moon,

often praying in languages

the grass blades wouldn’t understand.

Our divinity can be drawn

in a Venn diagram.

Macallan Lay is an emerging poet. She is currently pursuing her MFA at the University of Missouri and lives in St. Louis with her wife.

Rita Maria Martinez

Rita Maria Martinez

Valentine for Doctor Van Helsing

 

Dear Doctor, I envy Mina. Instead of criticizing her

for being Type A, for memorizing train schedules

and expostulating theories on Dracula’s whereabouts,

you praise her keen mind, her deductive reasoning.

Well versed in matters of heredity and myriad migraine

triggers, you'd never claim I'm psychosomatic, too sensitive,

or hysterical. Unlike one man of medicine, you wouldn't

advise getting pregnant to spur possible migraine remission.

Why do the masses think procreating is a panacea?

Van Helsing, if you were my doctor, I’d swallow medicine

without complaint. I'd let you crown me with a wreath of feverfew.

I’d let you smear the daisy-like flowers on my bedroom's

doorframe in wide flourishes, tie clusters of Chrysanthemum

Parthenium to my headboard, demure white florets and feathery

leaves worthy of adorning blushing brides in Austen novels.

Doctor, evenings you may consecrate my room—sprinkle

holy water on my pillow and head, around the periphery

of my bed. As I drift off, you’d rub my feet, assuage throbbing

pressure points between my toes, caress neuropathy away.

Following a harrowing migraine onslaught during perigee —

when the moon is most merciless — you'd sit bedside,

permit I hold and squeeze your skilled hand like women

in labor do their spouses’ hands. Doctor, you'd whisper —

It will pass. It will pass, my Little Miss — while massaging

my temples and applying a cold compress. Who wouldn't benefit

from your benevolent bedside manner, from kind ministrations

performed on instinct, the vow to do no harm rooted

in your healing touch.

 

​

The Invisible Girl

 

In elementary we walk single file

to school mass. A distracted boy bumps me

from behind and I tumble forward,

hands and knees mashed against gravel.

 

At church I stand and kneel like everyone.

 

After school, Mami hitches up the plaid skirt,

cleans and mercurochromes bloody knees.

Why didn’t you tell the teacher,

so she could’ve taken care of it?

 

How to explain the need to remain unseen,

fervent desire for invisibility

the code I clung to, pseudo-existence I practiced

when Papi was mad, before the pediatrician’s 

needle, and times I wanted to fly

under the radar so badly I deposited snotty

tissues inside my first-grade desk to avoid

standing and walking to the trash can.

 

How does one confess the desire to fade,

to remain undetected 

like Claude Rains who elevated

insubstantiality

to an art form.

Rita Maria Martinez's current poetry raises awareness about triumphs and challenges when navigating life with chronic daily headache (CDH) and migraine. Her Jane Eyre-inspired poetry collection—The Jane and Bertha in Me (Kelsay Books)—was a finalist for the Andrés Montoya Poetry Prize. Rita's poetry appears in publications like The Best American Poetry Blog, Ploughshares, Pleiades, and Tupelo Quarterly. Her work was also featured as part of CLMP's 2023 Disability Pride Month reading list. Follow Rita on Instagram @rita.maria.martinez.poet or visit https://comeonhome.org/ritamartinez.

Jeff Mock

Jeff Mock

Taxiing to the Runway, the Pilot Explains His Genesis

 

A raven snatched me from

My crib, settled me in

 

Its nest and fed me insects

And roadkill, and, a few

 

Weeks later, pushed me

Out.  I could not fly—

 

I hadn’t even begun

To teethe—, but human weakness

 

Was not the raven’s concern.

All this I learned from

 

The coyote who saw it.  I fell,

Snapping branches, flailing

 

My arms, a sort of flying

Down, down, downward,

 

Which set the nature

Of my desire, to fly upward.

 

The coyote told me the world

Deforms us early on, and then

 

We want what it has taken.

Who knows what was taken

 

From you, or will be?  Now,

Fasten your seatbelt, please.

Jeff Mock is the author of Ruthless. His poems appear in American Poetry Review, The Atlantic MonthlyThe Georgia ReviewNew England ReviewThe North American ReviewThe Southern Review, and elsewhere. He directs the MFA program at Southern Connecticut State University and lives in New Haven, Connecticut, with his wife, Margot Schilpp, and their daughters, Paula and Leah.

Kenneth Pruitt

Kenneth J. Pruitt

The News

            for Jan Pruitt

 

My cancer felled my mother like a spell, switching on a deep blues she sang both skyward and earthward.

 

She did not say the word, as if to stifle a curse, as if a ghoul unobserved could unbecome a ghoul, descend from my throat, retreat into hell.

 

She placed her head into my neck, into that curve where a child seeks home base, receives, resets.

 

I imagined her long drive for one hug as silent. A mother driving alone still conjures her family, fits them into her mind’s car, buckle by buckle.

 

Without a thyroid, the body spends its spare coins on seeing, standing, holding tight to a newspaper, forgetting what you’re buying, snapping out of the murk as an older clerk calls to you, asks if you’re ready, son.
 

I never did tell her that the day before my surgery I had an omen of my own death and ascension:

rearview mirror

pickup truck

my eyes’ reflection

transposed on

an anxious sky

indifferent clouds

needles on my skin

then gone
 

I remembered today in the middle of sit-ups, blue towel under head, looking at a bluer sky, clouds loyal this time.

 

All else besides rolled under beneath the deck beneath the democratic patio beneath dirt then limestone beneath to underground tributaries down to the river.
 

All these beneath were of no mind to me—blood in my ears trilling, trilling—nor to the river holding an open-mouth tally of forever the number one, nor certainly to the ivy, cool on the south wall, pickling on the brick.

 

After the Dawn Birds

 

No down remains.

They’ve up and left

 

one feather mottled

in all whites like cold.

 

Her gaze breaks west.

The feather falls to pieces—
 

pulled from the center

pushed at the edges

like eyes on waking.

 

The prospect of sun

imminent in the grass

 

the pieces scatter

over ornery ground

 

slipping into holes

made for harvest.

Kenneth J. Pruitt is an educator by training who currently works in a nonprofit setting focused on community health and well-being. For four years, he has been the curator of Poetry at the Point, a reading series with the Saint Louis Poetry Center, where he is also on the board. Recent publications can be found in the Racket, Rain Taxi, and the Riverfront Times (RIP). He lives in South St. Louis City with his wife and son.

Melissa Qualls

Melissa Qualls

For Nora

 

A possum waddles past me on my nightly walk,

silver white under streetlights,

so haphazard in its scuttling I am startled still.

 

And then suddenly

I am on another sidewalk, in another neighborhood

with you, almost two.

No longer scooting along on your big wheels

 

mesmerized instead by the too-near possum

giving birth, tiny pink

pups sliding out beneath her tail with ease.

 

One by one they cling to her fur, inching

their way up to the dark protection of her pouch

as she climbs her way to safety

in the rusted gutters of the abandoned brick house.

 

Your own birth was not so easy.

No sliding for you, pulled instead

from my sectioned stomach

tangled in the cord that had, until then,

given you life.

 

For months I had dreams you would come out a

furred animal with needled teeth

and ready claws,

even then wishing you the strength and fierceness

all women need

to survive.

 

Wednesday Afternoon, April 4th

 

I lead my children

around the backyard, searching

for the best place to bury

the cat.

 

 A man on the garage roof

pauses, gutter in hand, watching as

 

we pick a spot near the back,

shaded by a large overhanging shrub,

under the ivy that has overtaken

all else.

 

Through the open back door,

Sherman wanders outside, listing, unsure,

a long line of stringy spit hanging from his mouth.

Cancer won’t let him swallow.

He blinks in the new spring sun.

 

In a few days, I will carry his

heavy, still body

to the hole my husband

now digs,

careful to support his limp head

the way I somehow knew,

as if by instinct, how

to carry my newborns home.

Steven Schroeder

Steven Schroeder

After my Childhood Friend Shot Himself in the Heart

 

His father, at the bookstore

where I worked, ordered

several earthtone guides

to daily living with loss,

weights on the hold shelf

weeks later when I quit

without contacting him,

months deep into my own

sentence that’s taken me

eighteen nineteen twenty

years to incomplete—

​

Triple Jeopardy!

 

I’d like random facts

about state capitals

and fastest land animals

and baseball statistics

scored before I was born

and leaders who died

at historical battles

for a thousand, please.

Give me books

by plot, by character,

by subtitle, by cover,

by map, by creature,

by planet, by disaster.

Let’s try minor lines

in movies I haven’t seen

forever, ricocheted

rat-a-tat with my brother

instead of talking

for five fucking minutes.

 

You often imitate

your colleague’s hatred

of this vacation spot,

context inconsequential.

Eight months back,

your daughter left

her purple marker

in this toy chest

or this dresser drawer

or this basement corner

and now it’s urgent.

Once your brain starts,

it can’t stop this song

you loved at the end

of your night out

and series of errors

with your not-yet-ex

before you learned

it was already too late.

 

What are blanks

where answers were?

What is I know that

I know that word but

don’t quite anymore?

Who is what’s-her-name,

I met her yesterday?

Who is the face

I picture from the thing

about space, I think,

or chemistry class

or no place at all?

What is a slow soft echo

of my writer friend,

lost a decade ago

to a stroke at forty,

who said my poems

promise people laughter,

then drop the hammer?

​

I'd Like to Find my Final Line

 

The kind of line that lasts

the rest of my life, at least

as smart as me, as fine

as lines my friends have

and finer than some,

a line I think of often

without overthinking things,

line I could sleep inside

a mile deep and feel secure,

whisper line, whiskey line,

line that half-rhymes

with wolves, that brims

with witchery, that arcs

through my whole self

from follicles to toenails,

fireworks line, spotlight line,

line I search forever for

before the line finds me

right where I need to be,

line that reminds me of

and helps me forget

my first last line, the one

I lost long ago, and tells me

this line’s going well so far.

Steven D. Schroeder is the author of three books of poetry, most recently Wikipedia Apocalyptica. His second, The Royal Nonesuch, won the Devil’s Kitchen Reading Award from Southern Illinois University. His poems are recently available or forthcoming from South Dakota Review, Yalobusha Review, and Ballast, among others. He edits the online poetry journal (www.poetrycurrency.com). 

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